Mood of the day

Back to the overflowing optimism and all is well in my beautiful little world. I was able to finish listening to Venkatesan Kalyanam. Came in to work earlier than usual and feeling absolutely awesome as I came in Before the rain started. Now I can enjoy the rain sitting at my desk with hot coffee on my hand.

Bad day Alert

I am usually upbeat and happy go lucky person. When the new day begins, I am filled with optimism. And that trait is the one I consider as my best trait. Today the overflowing optimism that I was filled with in the morning has been replaced by a dark black cloud of sadness and self-pity in the night. It is like I am being held in contempt because of the fender bender yesterday. I am tired and don’t want to be the face of all the loathing. I wish the day will end soon. So a new day filled with optimism can begin. Update: feeling better after watching a movie. Good night.

Same old same old

It has been a while since I wrote anything. Nothing spectacular happened. I just wanted to talk to a void. Life has become such a routine. Once upon a time, I used to shudder when I hear the word “routiene” and now it has become a normalcy. That doesn’t mean same thing happens day in and day out after all it is not like in Groundhog day. I went to Washington DC for a week and it was the much needed break in routine. It was great to get away from the daily bustle. But am glad to come back to two ecstatic kids who clearly missed their mom. My 6 and 3 year sons flooded me with hugs and kisses and made me the happiest person in the world. Today I am in depths of depression (as Annie would day) because I caused a fender bender at the parking lot. Kind of irritated by my stupid decision when little part of my brain was telling me that the space isn’t enough. That is the reason I wanted to speak to a void so I can feel better. I feel Extremely guilty. Lately I have been internalizing my feelings so much that today I just wanted to write it down and get it over with like I used to long time back. But when I wanted to write something I just don’t want to write about unpleasant things I want to write about something going that is why I wrote about my sons.