Same old same old

It has been a while since I wrote anything. Nothing spectacular happened. I just wanted to talk to a void. Life has become such a routine. Once upon a time, I used to shudder when I hear the word “routiene” and now it has become a normalcy. That doesn’t mean same thing happens day in and day out after all it is not like in Groundhog day. I went to Washington DC for a week and it was the much needed break in routine. It was great to get away from the daily bustle. But am glad to come back to two ecstatic kids who clearly missed their mom. My 6 and 3 year sons flooded me with hugs and kisses and made me the happiest person in the world. Today I am in depths of depression (as Annie would day) because I caused a fender bender at the parking lot. Kind of irritated by my stupid decision when little part of my brain was telling me that the space isn’t enough. That is the reason I wanted to speak to a void so I can feel better. I feel Extremely guilty. Lately I have been internalizing my feelings so much that today I just wanted to write it down and get it over with like I used to long time back. But when I wanted to write something I just don’t want to write about unpleasant things I want to write about something going that is why I wrote about my sons.